Hie! My name is Tammy and I joined recently. I'm sorry to hear about your granny and your granpa! I can tell you are confused as to why this happened and I want to assure you that God knows why and the more you seek him the more He will reveal the reasons to you.I encourage you to go and read Isiah 57vs1-2, I think it might be of help to you! Remember that God understands more than anyone could ever (Psalm 147vs5), He's there with you even though you feel you do.Its hard to go through something like this and not be shaken but please keep holding on to God.The bible says "after having done all to stand, keep standing". There is nowhere else and noone else to run to besides Him.
Phillipians 4 vs 6-9 says don't worry, give everything to God in prayer. Talk to him and let him know how you feel. Ask Him these questions that have been on your heart, tell Him what has dissapointed you, share everything with Him and as you do, it'll be like a burden lifting off your shoulders and the more you progress in prayer and reading your bible, the more He will begin to give you understanding. He says He heals the broken hearted (Psalm 147 vs 3) and He will heal your depression. Just don't give up, Hold on to God nomatter what you feel, He will bring you through!I love you, and most of all God loves you and I pray that the peace of God that passes all understanding and the joy of the Lord that is your strength would come and live in you today, bringing a fresh start, a fresh smile and a fresh day into your life.

Be blessed beyond measure!

Tammy
p.s
Read the bible and find more than just answers... find God. If you're having problems believing in Jesus anymore, go back to the word and find Him all over again, you'll see your faith begin to grow more than before.But don't just read with out praying, or speaking the word into existance over your life.Faith comes by hearing and hearing the word of God Romans (10 vs 17).

Tammy1's advice is great and if you listen to it it can help you out a lot..Jesus is patient and he is there for you; just know that he loves you and whenever you need to confide in him even though it may not seem like it he is listening. Just keep your chin up and try to move forward...

And remember You can either be a mirror and only shine back the things that have happened in your life or you can be a window...But only a window lets light in. If you want Jesus to help you you have to personaly find him in your heart and believe that he is there with you every step of the way...as are we


Stay Blessed,
Richie

Im here if You need to talk

Hie
I hope my advice was of help to you. How are you doing?

I know I'm kind of late on this, but I have some advice too...

Two years ago on Christmas morning, we were eating breakfast when two policeman came to our door. My mom went out to talk to them and came back with a paper in her hands and she was crying, saying, 'we thought this would be how we heard from him next'. Meanwhile I'm flipping through every family member I can think of in my brain and I can't figure out what happened and I'm totally panicking. Then the police leave and my mom tells us that my Uncle Mike died in his apartment on the 23rd. Now I hardly knew my Uncle Mike. He took off when I was 2 or 3 and we never heard from him again. But it was like there was this sudden empty hole in my heart and I just started bawling. I don't even know why because I hardly knew the man. But there was some encouragement, when they searched his apartment, his Bible was laying open on his bed. How cool is that?

So I can identify with losing a loved family member and not really knowing why God decided to take them away. But if your grandparents were Christians, you have the satisfaction and encouragement that they are in Heaven now. Just keep on pushing through; I know this is a hard time. Remember how much God loves you, and He'll take really good care of you, even make some of your dreams come true (I kid you not, He's already done that twice for me) if you just ask Him. I would encourage you to look into the Diary of a Teenage Girl series, by Melody Carlson. Specifically, Kim (scroll to the bottom, that's the first book in the series, Just Ask) http://www.doatg.com/book_list.aspx?ID=2 because she deals with some of the same issues as you. Not all, but some.

They're fairly quick reads but they're really encouraging (and addicting ;))

I'll pray for you.